Hmm, that was interesting...

I've recently ventured out to the 'left coast' for the Vancouver 2010 Olympic Games and I'm absolutely stoked about being in the atmosphere of the Games over the next 17 days. My trip didn't start with bells and whistles though. After a day in White Rock and venturing around following the torch and taking in some beautiful sunshine and sea air, I went to bed with an uneasy feeling in my stomach. Needless to say I spent a good portion of the night watching the contents of my stomach re-emerge from my body. (Definitely not better the second time around!) It got me thinking about the last time I was actually sick that didn't involve some sort of alcohol induced queasiness...and my last recollection was probably when I was in late elementary school or maybe even high school; so that puts it at over 10 years ago.

Pretty healthy ten years if you ask me. I just wish I understood the cause of this sudden change in my tolerance for food and smells and eating. As of today, I'm eating, not much, but I'm eating and I'm noticing a lot of emotions are surfacing as a result of decreased food and being sick. Today I've had to deal with a lot of frustration; all a part of adjusting to the new environment I'm sure. However, I can't shake the feeling that the Universe is trying to send me a message. Amidst all the Olympic buzz I know that it would be very beneficial for me to find some quiet time and space and listen. The Universe has my attention now and based on the emotions that are surfacing as I write this, now might be an opportune time to do that.

Just breathe....

Ya know, normally I would spare on posts like this, work through it on my own and then write about how I overcame it...today, I decided to take a different route. I decided to write about that other part of the process. And here's why. I agree with optimism and I'm all for sending out a positive message to the world. I'm also all about being honest about what's going on in my life and I expect the same from others. I've had it with lies, facades, manipulations and sugar coated truths; if you can't be yourself and own that 100% of the time then what kind of message are you sending the world? "Be the change you wish to see in the world..."- Gandhi. I clearly wish to see more truth and authenticity. I guess that's also a message for me and I recognize that my fears around this are that people will be hurt by me being honest, which also causes me to realize that hurting people is not within my power...that's their choice to allow my words to hurt them. At the same time, I know that I can be...actually, you know what, I just need to trust myself!

I trust myself...and that tells me more than I need to know!

And once again, I'm writing about how I overcame it....