So Much Sunshine...

Have you ever come across something you have had tucked away for a while that makes you stop and smile and takes you back to wherever it originally came from?

I had this happen to me yesterday while I was searching for a misplaced CD. I came across this :)

And of course it made me smile! I got to thinking about when I actually made this. This particular quote was the only quote out of 12 that really caught my attention. It was bright, it was fun, it was sunny! And in the middle of my 'mod podge' phase (Thank you Brave Girls Club Soul Restoration) which was actually one of the most therapeutic and creative things I have ever done, I created this! I hung it proudly in my home at the time thinking that it was something bright to spruce up the place. Looking back now I was trying to create sunshine where it wasn't always shining.

Today I was talking with a friend and I said to him, "I looked at this piece that I made and wished that someone had bought it and given it to me instead of me making it for myself!" And I still really do wish that someone (perhaps the person I was with at the time) was thoughtful enough to see this and say, "This screams Kelly!" and buy it for me. But how does one buy something that doesn't exist until after it's created...lol

It's interesting for me to think that I wanted someone else to tell me this; that I wanted someone else to see that this was me (because I certainly think it is!) and tell me that, and low and behold a year later I hear this more often than not... :) I am not trying to be boastful here, but what I am getting at is that we receive what we give and what we put out there.

We attract who we are. I was putting this out there last year and a year later it's come to fruition BUT first I had to see it inside of me, I had to acknowledge an aspect of what makes me great and then I had to allow others to see it too. This summer I took a stroll through the fire and that heat made me realize two things.
1. I was afraid to be fully seen as me and
2. I wasn't willing to see myself fully or I had no idea how
So I decided that it was OK to move towards being fully seen and seeing myself fully and it has been the biggest blessing I ever could have asked for.

So, yes, I still want someone (well let me be clear - someone I am in a relationship with) to be so thoughtful that if they saw this they would buy it and give it to me as a gift, but I now understand that in order for others to be able to give me that gift, sometimes they can't see it until I do and then again sometimes it's the reverse and I can't see it until they do :) Either way I am grateful I found this little piece of love that has brought me so many thoughts today.