It was a long drive out to Colorado, but well worth the time and lack of sleep. I feel at home here and that sense of peace is my confirmation that I am in the right place and doing the right thing right now. It's bee a learning experience for me, as everything in life is and stopping to smell the roses or see what is really going on has been something I haven't been doing lately.
My sister and I are staying with our friend Ben and he's got this great book by Dan Millman. "The Life You Were Born to Live: A Guide To Finding Your Life Purpose". It's very interesting and so very accurate!!! Even after endless hours in courses and reading countless spiritual books I am still amazing (yes I am amazing!), I mean amazed :) at how much more I have to learn. This book uses your birthday and numerology to show us what traits we have brought with us in this lifetime, what challenges and obstacles we are here to overcome and experience as well as the mountains we are to climb to fulfill our purpose only to find that it doesn't end! "Your parents gave you a name, the Universe gave you a number."
My number is 34/7. The 7 indicates my primary purpose or lessons for this lifetime which is Trust and Openness. The 3 and 4 are other vital parts of my birth number which are Expression and Sensitivity, Stability and Process. Then there is also a bit about the combination of numbers, which I haven't yet got to as I'm still reeling from the fact that this book has me absolutely pegged!!!
The interesting thing is that since learning about my tendencies and my traits I have become more aware of them and how they are operating my life in both positive and negative ways. My tendency towards paranoia as a 7 leads me to have a sense of fear about 'missing out' on something or 'losing an opportunity or chance' as well as creating crazy insane stories about events that don't even happen!!! It's costing me enjoying the present moment and going with the flow. It is most definitely a trait I had not understood until I read the book. Another is my impatience that causes me to skip steps, miss instructions, jump to conclusions, do things half ass...it goes hand in hand with my paranoia. My impatience is what leads to my paranoia. If I had enough patience to see things through step by step instead of leaping across the river, I'd save myself a lot of frustration. The paranoia is also what has stopped me from trusting myself, others and the universe and has kept me closed up and guarded my entire life. Only in the last year have I really begun to open up to this concept and more recently begin to trust myself and the universe.
I'm very greatful that my sister is with me for this journey and road trip, because she has proved not only a great friend, but also a great warrior who speaks her truth and calls me on all my shit! As well, she seems to be having a blast and that makes me happy to see her happy. We feed off each other and so far it's been a great time! I'm glad our relationship has grown to a level where we can bitch at each other and still laugh our asses off in the process! I look forward to what this new chapter brings.
Check out this thing called 'life', it's pretty cool when you see it for what it is...everything!
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
A Little Direction Please?
It's been a month since I decided to leave my position at the Chiropractic Clinic. The plan was to go out to Colorado and possibly move there, but now knowing when my intuition is speaking to me, there was a lot of hesitancy. I did my acting and attracting, but something just wasn't sitting right with me. Then came the long awaited weekend at Life Directions Intensive! Boy did I need that!
When I look back at how I created all of this it goes all the way back to my 4th year of university, sitting on my floor and saying, "I'd really like to help change the world." Then I had so much on my plate I never thought anything about until I was in New Zealand and 4 of the 26 kids in my class had any aspiration to become something other than a factory worker. Half of them didn't realize that they could even become anything! And the voice in my head said to me, "You've got to do something, not enough is being done to show these kids their potential!" And so it began. It started off as culture shock coming home from Australia and itching to be anywhere but here, then it was complete confusion, frustration, anger with myself and my relationships. I freed myself, I did the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life...I followed my heart and ended a 3 year relationship. After a day of crying I woke up expecting the tears and found only clarity. It was so clear! It was like having new eyes, new ears and a new purpose for being and then I began my quest for knowledge and my journey with Peak Potentials. It was at the very first course I knew I was going to be doing major changes with kids and youth on the planet.
I just re-read all of my posts from the beginning because it's been an interesting journey and I know that my thoughts and perspectives have changed. What was really interesting watching myself grapple with the lessons I was learning. Twisting them, making bold committments, asking lots of questions. I was trying to piece together the puzzle so it would finally make sense. And it does because in that moment that was who I was and what I was thinking. The part I was missing was that it doesn't always have to make sense. Just because you're putting together the puzzle doesn't mean it has to get done today! It's a work in progress, life is a work in progress, when you find more pieces sometimes it takes a while before you figure out where it goes.
Life Directions was a BIG piece of my puzzle. How was I supposed to combine all of my passions and live my vision. It was all such a hurricane for me. Teach, travel, write, not have a J.O.B., become financially free, work with youth??? Until you see it, you can't imagine how the hell any of it will work!!!! Had I taken LD prior to all the other courses, I wouldn't be as on track as I am right now. That's how I work, I need all the info up front, or enough to get me going so that when I see the window of opportunity I'm ready to jump fast! Well, I'm ready to jump now!
At LD I discovered or maybe I should say confirmed that my mission in this lifetime is to teach youth to live in their higher selves. What is interesting is that no matter how on or off purpose you think you are, you are always living your mission. It is your soul. If you feel like you're off purpose then you're just learning what you need to learn before you realize why you needed to learn that! Your purpose for being on this earth is to add value to other people's lives, to help them in some way (art, writing, music, building, being a free spirit). The challenges you have overcome in your life give an indication as to who you can help, how you can help and why you want to help. Usually you want to help because you don't want anyone to have to go through what you went through! So there's your mission and then there's your vision. Your vision is your vehicle to live your mission. It's the HOW to live your mission.
My mission was clear, but my vision was fuzzy. I had a general idea, but my intuition was telling me that something was missing. One of the coaches at the event helped me considerably in this regard. He said, "You know your mission, that will not change, but for your vision, what is it that you feel 'called' to do right now?". And so I sat with that on Tuesday morning after the course and immediately, no hesitation came travel and write. It fit perfectly into my sister's vision of travelling and learning more about healing arts so we do it together! We're going on a road trip across North America to see people, sites and gather information for our 3-5 year vision! We will have a blog showing exactly where we are, what we're up to and what we're learning and I intend to keep this one rolling as much as possible too!
My question is to you- What is your direction? Which way will you go when you are at a crossroads?
The heart has no questions....only answers.
When I look back at how I created all of this it goes all the way back to my 4th year of university, sitting on my floor and saying, "I'd really like to help change the world." Then I had so much on my plate I never thought anything about until I was in New Zealand and 4 of the 26 kids in my class had any aspiration to become something other than a factory worker. Half of them didn't realize that they could even become anything! And the voice in my head said to me, "You've got to do something, not enough is being done to show these kids their potential!" And so it began. It started off as culture shock coming home from Australia and itching to be anywhere but here, then it was complete confusion, frustration, anger with myself and my relationships. I freed myself, I did the most difficult thing I've ever done in my life...I followed my heart and ended a 3 year relationship. After a day of crying I woke up expecting the tears and found only clarity. It was so clear! It was like having new eyes, new ears and a new purpose for being and then I began my quest for knowledge and my journey with Peak Potentials. It was at the very first course I knew I was going to be doing major changes with kids and youth on the planet.
I just re-read all of my posts from the beginning because it's been an interesting journey and I know that my thoughts and perspectives have changed. What was really interesting watching myself grapple with the lessons I was learning. Twisting them, making bold committments, asking lots of questions. I was trying to piece together the puzzle so it would finally make sense. And it does because in that moment that was who I was and what I was thinking. The part I was missing was that it doesn't always have to make sense. Just because you're putting together the puzzle doesn't mean it has to get done today! It's a work in progress, life is a work in progress, when you find more pieces sometimes it takes a while before you figure out where it goes.
Life Directions was a BIG piece of my puzzle. How was I supposed to combine all of my passions and live my vision. It was all such a hurricane for me. Teach, travel, write, not have a J.O.B., become financially free, work with youth??? Until you see it, you can't imagine how the hell any of it will work!!!! Had I taken LD prior to all the other courses, I wouldn't be as on track as I am right now. That's how I work, I need all the info up front, or enough to get me going so that when I see the window of opportunity I'm ready to jump fast! Well, I'm ready to jump now!
At LD I discovered or maybe I should say confirmed that my mission in this lifetime is to teach youth to live in their higher selves. What is interesting is that no matter how on or off purpose you think you are, you are always living your mission. It is your soul. If you feel like you're off purpose then you're just learning what you need to learn before you realize why you needed to learn that! Your purpose for being on this earth is to add value to other people's lives, to help them in some way (art, writing, music, building, being a free spirit). The challenges you have overcome in your life give an indication as to who you can help, how you can help and why you want to help. Usually you want to help because you don't want anyone to have to go through what you went through! So there's your mission and then there's your vision. Your vision is your vehicle to live your mission. It's the HOW to live your mission.
My mission was clear, but my vision was fuzzy. I had a general idea, but my intuition was telling me that something was missing. One of the coaches at the event helped me considerably in this regard. He said, "You know your mission, that will not change, but for your vision, what is it that you feel 'called' to do right now?". And so I sat with that on Tuesday morning after the course and immediately, no hesitation came travel and write. It fit perfectly into my sister's vision of travelling and learning more about healing arts so we do it together! We're going on a road trip across North America to see people, sites and gather information for our 3-5 year vision! We will have a blog showing exactly where we are, what we're up to and what we're learning and I intend to keep this one rolling as much as possible too!
My question is to you- What is your direction? Which way will you go when you are at a crossroads?
The heart has no questions....only answers.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I Finally Wrote a Story!!!!!!
I have had many experiences where it seems that time slows down and you are acutely aware of everything going on around you. Last April was one of those times. My dad and I were headed into a course called Train the Trainer and along the hall this man is walking along side us and introduces himself as Dennis. I had NO idea who this guy was, for all I knew, he was attending the course with us, but I can say that I will never forget that moment. For whatever reason it was as if time stood still. I can remember shaking his hand, seeing his rolly carry-on bag, noticing how kind his eyes and smile were and then time clicked back into play.
After the course he was giving away bracelets that his daughter had made. To some this would seem silly, but if you had heard about Lauren, you would realize that these bracelets were more than just accessories. To this day I believe that I recieved the exact bracelet I did, with the colours that were on it for very specific reasons. Lauren is a 10 year old girl who was diagnosed with a tumor at a very young age which has resulted in blindness. She is also a very gifted young lady having created magnificent bracelets and practically creating her own business out of it!
I don't know Lauren personally, but I do know that after recieving that bracelet I was inspired to begin writing. After the course I checked out her website and wrote in her guestbook about meeting her dad and recieving her bracelet and that it had inspired me to write. I believe I said I was going to write a children's book and she would get the first copy. Well, there were so many times I would sit down to write and nothing would happen. For a while I just let it be and focused on other things.
There are some things that you let be and you forget about them, but this just kept popping into my mind like when your dog wants to play, but you're not in the mood. Finally, tonight, for whatever reason I sat and wrote! I didn't write a children's book, although it could be if I really wanted it to be. I wrote a story!
The Wizard and the Warrior; Attraction and action. It would like to do something with this story, but right now I'm celebrating because I have finally fulfilled a promise, not only to myself, but to Lauren and the Universe!
Call me silly, but I truly do believe that my orange and yellow bracelet was truly meant for me and only me on the weekend I reclaimed the sunshine back into my being. GOOD DAY SUNSHINE!!!! Yesssss!!! Thank you Dennis, for you cannot know how truly grateful I am for the little, yet monumental things you have helped me to see.
Namaste.
After the course he was giving away bracelets that his daughter had made. To some this would seem silly, but if you had heard about Lauren, you would realize that these bracelets were more than just accessories. To this day I believe that I recieved the exact bracelet I did, with the colours that were on it for very specific reasons. Lauren is a 10 year old girl who was diagnosed with a tumor at a very young age which has resulted in blindness. She is also a very gifted young lady having created magnificent bracelets and practically creating her own business out of it!
I don't know Lauren personally, but I do know that after recieving that bracelet I was inspired to begin writing. After the course I checked out her website and wrote in her guestbook about meeting her dad and recieving her bracelet and that it had inspired me to write. I believe I said I was going to write a children's book and she would get the first copy. Well, there were so many times I would sit down to write and nothing would happen. For a while I just let it be and focused on other things.
There are some things that you let be and you forget about them, but this just kept popping into my mind like when your dog wants to play, but you're not in the mood. Finally, tonight, for whatever reason I sat and wrote! I didn't write a children's book, although it could be if I really wanted it to be. I wrote a story!
The Wizard and the Warrior; Attraction and action. It would like to do something with this story, but right now I'm celebrating because I have finally fulfilled a promise, not only to myself, but to Lauren and the Universe!
Call me silly, but I truly do believe that my orange and yellow bracelet was truly meant for me and only me on the weekend I reclaimed the sunshine back into my being. GOOD DAY SUNSHINE!!!! Yesssss!!! Thank you Dennis, for you cannot know how truly grateful I am for the little, yet monumental things you have helped me to see.
Namaste.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Action and Attraction
This was originally a note on Facebook, but it deserves to be posted on here too.
I've been doing a heck of a lot of courses this year. All of them have been about improving my current situation and lifestyle whether it's been financially, with relationships, confidence and inner power, health, you name it, I've likely done some work on it. One of the underlying principles of the courses is The Law of Attraction. In it's simple terms the Law of Attraction means that everything you have now has been attracted into your life by way of your thoughts (subconscious and conscious), feelings and emotions and actions. Everything in your life is a result of those three factors. In my personal experience, this has played out in my financial life, my relationships, the kinds of people I was attracting into my life, my health and my success.
When I first watched The Secret I was like 'sweet I just create a vision board and imagine I've already got it and it will magically appear'...Well somethings appear easier than others. They didn't appear because I was simply putting attention on them, they appeared quicker because I was already taking action towards them! These were simple things like trying a different kind of yoga and going skydiving, eating healthy. They were all things I wanted and because I was already focused on them and acting towards them they appeared very quickly.Now things that have taken a little more time have taken more time because when I first put it out there, those were the things I wanted, but I had no idea how to get them. With time, opportunities have come along or people have 'coincidentally...i think not' appeared in my life that have led me to get those things I wanted.
1st example. I was unemployed all year and towards the end of the summer I felt the urge to get a job so any opportunity that came along I acted on it. Then sure enough as I was thinking to myself "I think I'd like a job where I could get excited about helping people do something for themselves" I got a call for a job at the Chiropractic Clinic I'm working at now. I also knew I needed a place that would allow me to continue to attend the courses at my will...and guess what....this place did! Absolutely Perfect!
2nd. Hadn't played volleyball in months and was looking to get back into it so I put it on my vision board and 2 weeks later i got a call from a friend who needed an extra player for the season. Now I'm playing volleyball again.
3rd. I've been expanding my network of friends and connections for financial purposes in my life for approx 5 weeks and I have manifested at least 5 people who will directly be able to assist me with those ventures in the last 2 weeks! If I hadn't stopped and taken the time to talk to them and ACT on that I would have never known they were exactly who I needed!Now here's the catch, just because you have it doesn't mean you stop acting on it. You've got to keep the momentum going otherwise it all diappears,unless of course, that's what you want it to do.
This is the fun part. Finding the 'Mr or Mrs Right'. I'm no expert in this field by any means, but I know what has worked for me. I created a list of exactly what I'm looking for in a man and when I see it I appreciate it just so that the Universe knows it's on the right track. The men (of all ages) that I've been attracing into my life since writing that list are unbelievable. They are the men you thought never existed on the planet! Do I act on every one I come across....no. But when I find one that really sparks an interest....heck yes!!!! I don't care how friggin scared I am to go and talk to them, I take action do it anyway...then I attract a result and understand what it really is or isn't. They may not be Mr Right for the rest of my life, but I'll never know if I don't check it out, they may be Mr. Right Now. It's really about living in the moment, seeing an opportunity and exploring it. Whatever the result, it doesn't matter, at least you know what you're not missing.
The most common reasons for not doing things are fear, not wanting to, not feeling like it, being tired. None of these are physical barriers (well maybe the tired, but there's a difference between tired and lazy!) they are all mental barriers...barriers you can break through! At Enlightened Warrior Training Camp I learned some valuable principles. To act inspite of fear, to act inspite of my mood and to never give up. People think that's a lot of work to get what you want. Well it's not going to magically appear in your stocking this xmas without acting towards it. Without action there is no attraction.
I've been doing a heck of a lot of courses this year. All of them have been about improving my current situation and lifestyle whether it's been financially, with relationships, confidence and inner power, health, you name it, I've likely done some work on it. One of the underlying principles of the courses is The Law of Attraction. In it's simple terms the Law of Attraction means that everything you have now has been attracted into your life by way of your thoughts (subconscious and conscious), feelings and emotions and actions. Everything in your life is a result of those three factors. In my personal experience, this has played out in my financial life, my relationships, the kinds of people I was attracting into my life, my health and my success.
When I first watched The Secret I was like 'sweet I just create a vision board and imagine I've already got it and it will magically appear'...Well somethings appear easier than others. They didn't appear because I was simply putting attention on them, they appeared quicker because I was already taking action towards them! These were simple things like trying a different kind of yoga and going skydiving, eating healthy. They were all things I wanted and because I was already focused on them and acting towards them they appeared very quickly.Now things that have taken a little more time have taken more time because when I first put it out there, those were the things I wanted, but I had no idea how to get them. With time, opportunities have come along or people have 'coincidentally...i think not' appeared in my life that have led me to get those things I wanted.
1st example. I was unemployed all year and towards the end of the summer I felt the urge to get a job so any opportunity that came along I acted on it. Then sure enough as I was thinking to myself "I think I'd like a job where I could get excited about helping people do something for themselves" I got a call for a job at the Chiropractic Clinic I'm working at now. I also knew I needed a place that would allow me to continue to attend the courses at my will...and guess what....this place did! Absolutely Perfect!
2nd. Hadn't played volleyball in months and was looking to get back into it so I put it on my vision board and 2 weeks later i got a call from a friend who needed an extra player for the season. Now I'm playing volleyball again.
3rd. I've been expanding my network of friends and connections for financial purposes in my life for approx 5 weeks and I have manifested at least 5 people who will directly be able to assist me with those ventures in the last 2 weeks! If I hadn't stopped and taken the time to talk to them and ACT on that I would have never known they were exactly who I needed!Now here's the catch, just because you have it doesn't mean you stop acting on it. You've got to keep the momentum going otherwise it all diappears,unless of course, that's what you want it to do.
This is the fun part. Finding the 'Mr or Mrs Right'. I'm no expert in this field by any means, but I know what has worked for me. I created a list of exactly what I'm looking for in a man and when I see it I appreciate it just so that the Universe knows it's on the right track. The men (of all ages) that I've been attracing into my life since writing that list are unbelievable. They are the men you thought never existed on the planet! Do I act on every one I come across....no. But when I find one that really sparks an interest....heck yes!!!! I don't care how friggin scared I am to go and talk to them, I take action do it anyway...then I attract a result and understand what it really is or isn't. They may not be Mr Right for the rest of my life, but I'll never know if I don't check it out, they may be Mr. Right Now. It's really about living in the moment, seeing an opportunity and exploring it. Whatever the result, it doesn't matter, at least you know what you're not missing.
The most common reasons for not doing things are fear, not wanting to, not feeling like it, being tired. None of these are physical barriers (well maybe the tired, but there's a difference between tired and lazy!) they are all mental barriers...barriers you can break through! At Enlightened Warrior Training Camp I learned some valuable principles. To act inspite of fear, to act inspite of my mood and to never give up. People think that's a lot of work to get what you want. Well it's not going to magically appear in your stocking this xmas without acting towards it. Without action there is no attraction.
Friday, November 21, 2008
All Your Relations
What an amazing weekend it was to be in the company of great friends and well, really....family. An entourage of amazing speakers graced the stage and passed along valueable information that no doubt willchange the way I have relationships forever.
Beginning the weekend off with Dr. Patrick Wanis we discovered our relationship blueprint, what kind of person we are based on the qualities and attributes we posses. An interesting revelation that reinforced what I have been trying to push aside all year. Other great speakers such as Barbara DeAngelis, Marianne Williamson, Helice Bridges and Marcia Martin really connected with my current situation. Marcia Martin was absolutely amazing! Her presentation really allowed me to give myself permission to be open and honest about asking what men want. At times it was like listening to one of my good friends...why I didn't take her advice is beyond me, but I'll certainly be asking her for more now!!!
What this weekend really showed me though was to open my heart and speak my truth no matter how hard or easy it may be. I'm very greatful I had the opportunity to realize this in the company of such supportive people. Without them I couldn't have done it.
Many people believe that these courses aren't in my best interest and that it's just a phase I'm going through. My response to that is, "Thank you for sharing, but I don't care what you think." I have been through enough in my life to know what is right for me and what is wrong. Every experience I have had has taught me something about myself, the patterns I am running and who I have grown into as a result. I have a deeper connection with myself as well as others in my life whether they realize it or not. I understand that my attitude of acceptance and gratitude has been seen as scary to some because it is so out of my previous rebelling warrior drive. To that I say, "Thank you Wizard camp for allowing me to tap into that part of me that sees the entire world as a beautiful place of love and light." I do realize that I need to tap into that Warrior mode right now, but it's been a blessing to go with the flow and take it day by day. And with that I leave you with one of my favourite messages. I get chills when I read it.
I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells,
I honor the place in youwhich is of Love, of Truth, of Light and of Peace,
When you are in that place in you,and I am in that place in me,we are One.
Namaste
Beginning the weekend off with Dr. Patrick Wanis we discovered our relationship blueprint, what kind of person we are based on the qualities and attributes we posses. An interesting revelation that reinforced what I have been trying to push aside all year. Other great speakers such as Barbara DeAngelis, Marianne Williamson, Helice Bridges and Marcia Martin really connected with my current situation. Marcia Martin was absolutely amazing! Her presentation really allowed me to give myself permission to be open and honest about asking what men want. At times it was like listening to one of my good friends...why I didn't take her advice is beyond me, but I'll certainly be asking her for more now!!!
What this weekend really showed me though was to open my heart and speak my truth no matter how hard or easy it may be. I'm very greatful I had the opportunity to realize this in the company of such supportive people. Without them I couldn't have done it.
Many people believe that these courses aren't in my best interest and that it's just a phase I'm going through. My response to that is, "Thank you for sharing, but I don't care what you think." I have been through enough in my life to know what is right for me and what is wrong. Every experience I have had has taught me something about myself, the patterns I am running and who I have grown into as a result. I have a deeper connection with myself as well as others in my life whether they realize it or not. I understand that my attitude of acceptance and gratitude has been seen as scary to some because it is so out of my previous rebelling warrior drive. To that I say, "Thank you Wizard camp for allowing me to tap into that part of me that sees the entire world as a beautiful place of love and light." I do realize that I need to tap into that Warrior mode right now, but it's been a blessing to go with the flow and take it day by day. And with that I leave you with one of my favourite messages. I get chills when I read it.
I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells,
I honor the place in youwhich is of Love, of Truth, of Light and of Peace,
When you are in that place in you,and I am in that place in me,we are One.
Namaste
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